There has been a silence on my blog for quite a while now. After our travel back to Murray, KY I have spent a lot of time in prayer, reading the word, meditation and thought. I have thought of what to write and what not to write. What I have come to the conclusion is that I will keep my word. After all a man is only as good as his word.
I can though share some scripture that God has shown me over this time. In 2 Timothy 4:14-15 it says "Alexander the coppersmith did me much harm, but the Lord will judge him for what he has done. Be careful of him, for he fought against everything we said."
Lately I have realized that I have been around some Alexanders in my life. Those that seem to stay close enough to seem friendly and make you feel befriended. Then all of a sudden you realize it was just a show. It was something that was for personal gain. I can really see Paul more clearly now here. Although I am not in prison about to die I can for a small amount realize the hurt. What now?? That is the question for me.
The answer is in found not only in the above verse but also in 1 Timothy 1:19-20. Here we see a bit more "Cling to your faith in Christ, and keep your conscience clear. For some people have deliberately violated their consciences; as a result, their faith has been shipwrecked. Hymenaeus and Alexander are two examples...."
I am called to keep my conscience clear and keep the faith. It may seem at times that others really have no conscience. They sleep at night with a clean mind. Little do they know that they stand on the shoreline of wreckage. It wasn't the wreckage of people but of their faith.
In the end I see "the Lord will judge" those and it is not my place to worry about it. When we stand in front of the Lord I want to be honest when I say. I did what was right...I didn't gossip, backbite, slander or any other thing that might tear someone down.
The Lord has led me to a different place. He has led me to a place I am excited to see.
1 comment:
We'll get there one step at a time. Life is very difficult and confusing. People are not always as they seem to be either. You served your time as a youth pastor. Put that hat aside, plug into your new job, and know that the past 11 years did make a difference (not just to God, but to many people and us). We did what we needed to do. I can at least have peace in that even if I don't have peace in the way it ended.
I don't know about you, but I'm about ready to bail off this emotional roller coaster before I get seasick!
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